If you know me and read my blog, I’m guessing you can kinda see what kind of a person I am in terms of thinking. I think about a lot of things-thus my goofythinker name. I have been this way since I can remember. I don’t think the people around me during my childhood, overthink as much as I do.
Because of this excessive thinking, sometimes I could be too sensitive.
Like for example, if I was driving a car, and I passed another car, I could be thinking, “what if the person inside that car cursed at me?” Multiple scenarios happened in my head. I imagined I explained to the cursing man what actually happened. He kept being angry. I explained. The thought that someone saw me as a bad person worried me unnecessarily.
Second example, my sister said bad things about me? I 100% had to correct them because if not, her perception would become reality. I couldn’t let go and we would fight. Compared to now I can totally ignore her.
That’s how severe it was. It led me to emotional instability during my teenage years especially in the family because no one seemed to understand me.
But today I saw this as a blessing. I’ve overcome the anxiety that comes with excessive thinking. I’ve learned mostly through the people I’ve met in my life, and I thanked them for it. For example during my university years, there’s someone who often blurted, “bodo amat” whenever he would do something stupid. I secretly copied his approach to life and to be honest in life sometimes we have to “bodo amat” at things. And there are many other things in life that shaped me to become who I am today.
– to English readers, “bodo amat” means who cares.
And for my excessive thinking, I’ve now taken advantage of it. Since now I am able to control it, I can now direct my thinking to the things that matter. I can write with so much thought because of it. I understand philosophy better because of it. I can be thoughtful about other people because of it. I am now wiser because of it. I navigate through life with less drama because of it.
And this is the quote that best describes how I now wear my overthinking as.
and to conclude, I think the answer to the title was: it’s a blessing. Since I am born as a package with overthinking tendencies, what better way than to treat it as a blessing?
Goofythinker 