Just last night I had a lot of uncontrollable laughs. I laughed because I watched a lot of Pinkan Mambo compilation videos and Lina Mukherje. For Lina “Queen of Garmek,” because that was my first time being exposed to her contents. I was very much surprised by how insightful she was. After all, she was famous for being a little cray-cray. And apparently she learned from her experiences and contemplated from it. While listening to what she had learned from her experiences, I was reminded that there’s no one true recipe in life.
How I came to that conclusion was because I also realized everyone’s experiences are different. If Lina did something and faced injustice, doesn’t mean by following the same recipe, others will suffer the same fate. But one thing I appreciated about Lina was that she was wise enough to declare that her theory came from her experiences, not a rule that everyone should abide by.
Only after you respect yourself then others could respect you, too. Respecting yourself means you know exactly what you want and you go with it. That’s why I respected my angry neighbor who knew her boundaries and dared to face annoying neighbors, rather than my cowardly ex who was afraid of confrontations, with excuse such as avoiding conflicts. Avoiding unnecessary conflict sure is a must, but there are some problems we should dare face forward.
A few days ago, when driving a car, my car hit another car. My fault. My mother was in the car.
After the hit, both cars were moved to side of the road. For things like this, you have to be brave and face responsibility. My mom, scared, told me not to go down from the car. Like, what the f was that supposed to mean? I hit another car. My fault. And you expect them to come to our car while we sat like a coward? Needless to say I didn’t listen to the stupid suggestion. I came down and everything went well. I treated them with respect and thankfully they were both good people who knew mistakes happen. I asked for forgiveness, spent a little money, and we were both on our way.
In the end what I wanted to say was: I hate cowardice. Like, I really really hate cowardice. That cowardice is fine if you are by yourself, just don’t drag me into your cowardice lifestyle.
Goofythinker 