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The wanderer

For so long I have wandered Through heatless blinding sun Through endless windless night Through waveless great ocean Through countless universes To find you, my one and only. That night I imagined you were a princess from a doomed kingdom. The other night I saw you a humble beautiful daughter of a merchant. And tonightContinue reading “The wanderer”

In Karma

In Karma, there is no saving. In Karma, there is no escape the fruit of your ill deeds. In Karma, once you do bad, there is no salvation, only dilution. In Karma, you deserve every misfortune that befalls. (Even for the worst possible thing to ever happen to human beings) In Karma, you are notContinue reading “In Karma”

Continuing from my rant

Having said all of those in my previous post. What is the meaning of life? I don’t want the answer: the meaning of life is to find meaning in life. I want a concrete answer. First I imagine if someday a meteor hits earth and then all humans and animals die, no exception. I believeContinue reading “Continuing from my rant”

I just want to yap, rap, rant, whatever.

Sometimes I worry maybe what I portray in the social media about who I am seems a little bit.. hypocritical? Like I see things from positive side, I think I’m always lucky and blessed, I respect people, I see people based on their character instead of their status, and maybe there are more, but IContinue reading “I just want to yap, rap, rant, whatever.”

Tom vs Summer

I will say it out loud, I am team Summer all the way.To be perfectly fair, there should be no ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ in the movie. Not at all. This discussion should not happen at all. End of story. I should stop writing about it. However, on the internet, I have found a lot ofContinue reading “Tom vs Summer”

Dopamine addiction

It’s been thousands of years since I last wrote something on this blog. I could have lied to you and said that I was busy. I had been ill. The muse was gone. But reality is, I was just being lazy. But saying I was lazy was not accurate, too. But I felt like somethingContinue reading “Dopamine addiction”

ABSJL (Possessed)

Big eyes, small pupils, eyes that follow you anywhere,strands of hair, messy, a chaotic movement by a dancer, arms bent backward, feet spinning in unnatural ways, but the head kept still, its eyes locked on me.No blood in sight, just dried black-red ink, which covers the eyes, shut forever.Woken up in what feels like aContinue reading “ABSJL (Possessed)”

Fake Bhikkhunis

Here I am sitting in the most crowded cafe in Bandung. Beautiful place it is. With comfortable plush sofa and wood-hard armrest. Semi-romantic ambience, perfect for dating, with 26 celcius temperature and wind blowing periodically. Then I noticed it. There are 2 lady bhikkhus, or buddhists call bhikkhunis, accompanied by another 3 unsignificant people. However,Continue reading “Fake Bhikkhunis”

Ego

How big a human ego can get never fail to amuse me. Have you ever met someone, facing with trouble, if the solution came from other people, she won’t listen to you?And then in the end, after a while, she would do what people have suggested, and she made it as if it came fromContinue reading “Ego”

Doubting is important

If you never doubt, and are always sure about everything, you certainly the biggest fool for the essence of intelligence is through doubt. I speak from experience when speaking with someone so full of conviction, seems like he never wants to be on the losing side, even though conversation is not even a battle, soContinue reading “Doubting is important”