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ABSJL (Possessed)

Big eyes, small pupils, eyes that follow you anywhere,strands of hair, messy, a chaotic movement by a dancer, arms bent backward, feet spinning in unnatural ways, but the head kept still, its eyes locked on me.No blood in sight, just dried black-red ink, which covers the eyes, shut forever.Woken up in what feels like aContinue reading “ABSJL (Possessed)”

Fake Bhikkhunis

Here I am sitting in the most crowded cafe in Bandung. Beautiful place it is. With comfortable plush sofa and wood-hard armrest. Semi-romantic ambience, perfect for dating, with 26 celcius temperature and wind blowing periodically. Then I noticed it. There are 2 lady bhikkhus, or buddhists call bhikkhunis, accompanied by another 3 unsignificant people. However,Continue reading “Fake Bhikkhunis”

Ego

How big a human ego can get never fail to amuse me. Have you ever met someone, facing with trouble, if the solution came from other people, she won’t listen to you?And then in the end, after a while, she would do what people have suggested, and she made it as if it came fromContinue reading “Ego”

Doubting is important

If you never doubt, and are always sure about everything, you certainly the biggest fool for the essence of intelligence is through doubt. I speak from experience when speaking with someone so full of conviction, seems like he never wants to be on the losing side, even though conversation is not even a battle, soContinue reading “Doubting is important”

Real work

I have noticed that people who do real work, are the ones neither “love” their job (and convincing themselves they love it) or hate their job (no shit.) They are the ones who show up, do what needs to be done, they do what the boss tells them to (about the job of course,) andContinue reading “Real work”

My faith about buddhism is probably different from yours

In my house we have a living stoic philosopher. He is my father. I think he is the most well made man in 21st century. He has mastered anger management to the point where he very very rarely gets angry. He is only angry when necessary and when he wants to assert control. He neverContinue reading “My faith about buddhism is probably different from yours”

Buddhism

Although I mentioned in previous post I don’t believe in fiction books. Of course. Anyone shouldn’t believe in fiction books. Fiction books are fictional, after all. Even you should question history books, as it can be manipulated. Basically, always be skeptical and question everything. Only after you practice and you find it true, then youContinue reading “Buddhism”

MBTI

I’m a very scientific person, I don’t believe in superstition, ghosts, and fiction books that most people believe. If someone tells me they can see ghosts, well I think he’s schizophrenic. And about seeing ghosts = schizophrenic, I have a theory (or more accurately, hypothesis,) that it’s just an oversensitivity. And this oversensitivity is appliedContinue reading “MBTI”

Question for the Philosopher

This is a question for all believers of any religion. What if one day God finally shows Himself.He is indeed all-powerful, all-knowing, almighty.However, he is not benevolent. Malevolent, even.He instructs us to do sacrifices, killing our children, and serving them to Him.He instructs us to bid wars against each other. However, God decides He willContinue reading “Question for the Philosopher”

Cool looking people

I don’t know if everyone else experienced this or not. But I used to feel intimidated by cool looking people, by foreigners, by tall people (ridiculously tall,) by people in suits. It’s hard to explain what the feeling exactly feels like. If I try to put it into words, maybe it’s the feeling that theyContinue reading “Cool looking people”